Twighlight 7 Years on

She wasn’t ever going to be his Bella, this was it. He had lost the battle to win the heart of his true love and know as he watched her slowly dying and the sound of heart come to a slow morbid beat he couldn't think of anything else to do but run.

This ‘thing’ inside her had killed her, and without meaning to it had killed me to. I want it to die, that thing, it doesn't deserve a life, and it doesn't deserve her either. So I do what I do best, I ran. As far and as fast as possible before Seth and Leah can even notice that I've gone. I know that I have people who care about me here and my father will be hurt but he’ll understand, I don’t want to have to put the pact, my pact, through the misery of knowing how much my life is worthless it’s just not fair. To everyone else she is just a girl but she was my girl, my Bella, the one who laughed with me and let me find myself and I’ve lost her, forever to a bunch of bloodsucking vampires who obviously never truly had her best interest at heart. I wonder how well Charlie will take the fact Edward let his only daughter die because he was too weak to say no to her. I think ill head to the northern Alps, maybe then the frozen temperature can really take my heart.

7 years later. . .

7 years later and the pain has eased just the slightest, I know I lost her physically and emotionally, but in some way or another I'm sure I can still feel her spiritually, maybe that’s what has made it so hard to accept the fact that Bella isn’t coming back. I let go a little more every day and now I don’t smell her or remember her favourite colour, as the memories fade I find myself left with just the remembrance of the exact shade of brown her eyes were when she would talk about me, burnt amber and not getting the opportunity to see them turn that shade has been the hardest idea to deal with it. It’s time to visit home, 7 years have passed what more could there be that I’ve missed?

I take a detour through the forest just in case any of the pact are patrolling, it’s been a while since I've heard their thoughts in my head and as much as I complained about having to suffer with having to listen to them, I have missed it. As I head through the familiar green grass I hear the voice I expected to hear first. Seth. “Jake mate welcome back! How have you been? Ok you won’t believe what you missed, so. . .” “hello Seth, ok wow buddy I see 7 years haven’t changed your ability to throw all information out there at all” Seth goes quiet and I can feel him blushing “I have grown up though Jacob and I want you to know that I am still in your pact, brothers stick together through everything, I will help you through everything” great I thought after 7 years he’s still just as sensitive as he was when I left, being a werewolf hasn’t solidified him at all. Help? What was it I needed help with? I have sorted all my stuff out I am a new person. As I round the corner to the clearing by the beach I phase back into my human form, shit I don’t have any pants. I haven’t had a need for clothes in the past 7 years, not only that I'm having trouble balancing, after a couple of minutes I gain balance and begin to search for any humans who will be scared off by my nudeness at a non nude beach. I look down to find a pair of pants and a t-shirt laid out just waiting for a body to fill them. Seth must have told them I was here, at least one thing is always certain, brotherhood is an unbreakable pact.

I chuck on the pants and discard the shirt; first up its time to return home and see my father out of anyone I’ve missed him the most. ……

Phasing back and forth comes just as naturally as it did 7 years ago, just like riding a bike. I head to the forest dad said something about a pact meeting and I think it’s about time I apologize for what I put everyone through when I was a jerk for choosing Bella over the boys, I mean I didn’t even imprint on her, how stupid are you when you still think there’s a chance even when the love of your life’s married to someone you despise. I make sure to think all this before phasing because I don’t want to get Leah started on me just yet, I’m hopping however that 7 years have done her some justice and she’s not such a pain in the butt. Everything falls into place relatively fast and it’s like I’ve never been gone. Sam is still leading the pact and I’m allowing it, I don’t want to be in charge anymore I’m happy following the orders to keep our families safe. Leah and I are on perimeter check and of course she’s straight into asking one hundred questions about where I’ve been and how disrespectful it was of me to leave the pact seeing as I practically forced her to leave Sam’s pact. After her rant is over we run in silence with just our thoughts going through our mind. I see Leah has imprinted on a boy I knew from school, and I find myself happy for her. After everything she went through with Sam it wasn’t an easy journey. As Sam calls us in for the night I head back at a slow pace with Leah jogging beside me “I must admit Jacob, you haven’t thought about her at all since you’ve been back, are you actually over her?” trust Leah to have to mention her, “Yeah, I think I am I have no choice anymore either way she’s gone” “oh? Jacob I didn’t. . .” and once again I did what I knew best, I ran.

It feels as though I never truly left, everything fits back on like a glove even though I know there are a few fingers missing. For weeks no one mentions her name or the family that took her and I think maybe I left it till perfect timing to come back but as we all know... nothing is ever as it seems. As I walk down the front of the beach I'm stroke by someone walking towards me from the other end of the beach, and she is beautiful. That is the first girl since Bella that I have ever really paid attention to. She walks towards me and as she stands slightly sided from me I look up to in time for her to catch my eye. Her eyes are a hazel nut brown and as they catch a glimpse of mine, they turn magnificent burnt amber. My heart stops beating, and all of a sudden I feel a burn in the left side of my chest and I look down, no hole. It feels as though my heart has been wrenched out and this is when it hit me. The pain, the beauty, her smile had me captivated at first glance, no one has ever had me that fast, not even Bella. I think I have just imprinted.

As she stares at me a second too long for her to not to feel something I realise I've known her my whole life and something inside me wants to call out her name “Nessie?” why did I just say that? Great now she will never talk to me again, I mean who’s going to take a second look at some guy who yells a random name at a girl? To my surprise she turns around “yes?” and then I really look at her, I mean really look at her. Her skin was very pale, even for a rainy town like forks, her hair was a chestnut brown and her face was soft, peaceful and very captivating, and her eyes were so familiar, like id been looking into them for centuries. Nessie, I wonder what made that name come out. I don’t know a Nessie? “You look familiar, do I know you?” she said “really? I was just thinking that exact thing as well” as I stare closer I notice that as her eyes change I realise who she looks like how did I not see this coming? Same hair colour, same eyes and skin and captivation just like her father. This was the child of Bella, Renessme. And before I can say anything she says “you’re Jacob? My Aunt Alice told me I would be seeing you, but she didn’t mention how good looking you were” she defiantly picked up the skill of flirting a lot easier than her mother “is Bell... I mean your mother around?” I gulp afraid to hear the answer. “She’s just at home, why don’t you come over for dinner, I've heard a lot about you”

I cannot believe it, I've imprinted on Bella’s daughter, I've never felt this way before and it makes me realise I will only ever love Bella as a best friend. Man she's going to be pissed when she finds out, better have my running shoes on.